If victories leave you feeling hallow, then you are waging the wrong war.
Like a lost forlorn child stood screaming into the dark, in order to try to scare the wolf from the door.
Why don’t you come on back inside - with the rest of us, it’s warm -
Don’t cast your mind into realms of projection - for your fears like bees on honey they’ll swarm.
Epiphany? More like I needed a lobotomy, but I DID always know that there was something that was wrong with me.Scared myself half to death with an illness that comes in a three. Ali said it best - ‘the hands can’t hit what the eyes can’t see’ -
So maybe you can tell me how to destroy an enemy - that lives in my mind and sends shots from on high like The Vietcong sat up in trees.
Left bewildered and demoralised by a disease that’s baffling and cunning, get back on the hamster wheel son, No one told you not to keep on running. .
Self sabotage - don’t make me laugh, I went in like The Beastie Boys and then I went in fucking hard.
20 year hard labour - not one to be left beaten, resilient for sure, kept on hammering for years on the same old door.
Had no idea that in reality there was something deep down that I was suffering with - I just thought I was alien ....from the rest of all you kids.
I know now today - I have a fear based malady, an obsessive type of mind and a cocaine allergy - If I put one in, there’s no telling where’s it’s taking me, snaking thru psychosis on a relapse tragedy -
Well - that was then and this is now - coming up fast on a year - Only God knows how -
I can’t believe the miracles that have happened so far, but I’ve got a long way to go in order to outweigh the past -
I tell you what tho, these days, most days - I live most happily, sitting on a secret that never would could or should have been…
The secret to my change is a conscious connection with something inside of me, hitching a ride alongside a power - inside a Universal melody.
Thank God above for the love that lives inside of me, the hope that I’ve got and the courage to be what i’m gonna be - Like a rat free from a maze, I’m amazed by the change in me and thank God every day for the grace that he gave to me.